Tuesday, 9 April 2013

Scan day

Monday the 25th of March took forever to come around! I was itching to see our baby. Running up to that time I'd had awful nightmares that I went to the scan there was no baby there. Then another one that we missed the appointment completely. I've slowly realised being pregnant has made me have paranoid slightly irrational thoughts of late so I just wanted some assurance I was just crazy lol.

Monday came around and I got all ready to go Ed was a little tense cause I guess if anything had gone wrong he'd have to be strong for me. I was just super excitable and trying to be positive. We got to the appointment early and I started feeling quesy possibly because of nerves or just cause I always feel sick. The radiographer called us in. She was younger than I expected and asked me to lay on the bed. She put the jelly on my belly and started scanning straight away! I couldn't see anything and she was just quiet thank goodness for Ed cause he could see the screen and I saw his reaction. He saw Gary first. He just looked at the screen in awe. I was there freaking out thinking yeah you can see Gary but is he ok? After a century it seemed of having this scanner shoved hard into my lower abdomen the radiographer said just one baby. Phew sigh of relief not twins or triplets just one. After that I could relax a little or could I . Gary wasn't in the position she needed him to be so she told me to cough. Nope he didn't move.10 coughs later nothing. So she asked me to stand up and march on the spot. I jumped. Got back on the bed nothing. I then had to roll over on the bed and finally Gary moved stubborn little one like his dad! Eventually after 15 mins of her scanning she showed me Gary it was the most beautiful strangest looking thing I had ever seen. I coughed and he moved his little arms and legs it was soo cute. I started crying. It was just amazing how this little thing inside me not even the size of my fist yet could move and respond to my movements too. I think at that moment that's when I truly fell in love with our baby. Gary was real, real stubborn too. I can't wait 6 months to meet him or her ;) I've got alot of growing up to do before then and goodness knows I need to get some books or something on babies. I probably won't be the best mum in the world but I can sure as hell try. That word mum still sounds weird when I'm talking about myself but I guess whether I'm ready or not I'm going to become one in 6 months.

Us waiting for the scan me eager Ed sleepy.

Our little Wild one at 12 weeks 2 days.
Us all excited and ready to tell the world