24 on the 24th :( but so grateful

Hmm 24 doesn't really sound an exciting age to be it's much further from 21 then 23 is but its not quite close enough to 30 yet. If anything I feel 30 times 2. Being a mother is tiring. Juggling a baby (who is now mobile) a huge laundry pile (that never gets smaller no matter how many washes I do a day) cleaning a house several times a day (as I have 2 babies if you count my husband) errands (how many times a week do I still have to pop to the supermarket even though we did a huge food shop at the start of the month)  oh and also fitting in some me time for making myself pretty (a 5 min shower while the baby naps then several jumping out the bath moments cause I think I've heard him cry or squeek or something).  

This month has been particularly hectic and as a result the last thing on my mind has been celebrating my birthday. We had a wedding at the beginning of the month as well as hubby starting a new job. Then hubby's birthday and surgery for me the day after, no not liposuction ( I  wish). Pregnancy was kind enough to leave me some gallstones, equaling bye bye gallbladder which I never realised I was quite fond of till I found out they were removing it. 

So I find myself now lying here at 3am asking myself where has the past year of my life gone? So I haven't achieved much but I am extremely grateful first of all to be ALIVE. I'm not as fit & healthy as I'd like to be but it's not the end of the world. I'm grateful for my BABY. A couple of blogger friends I have just recently lost their babies. A 5 month old little boy & a 3 year old little boy. I've been making sure to squeeze my little guy tighter everyday and to enjoy every minute spent with him he's learnt to crawl this week and to stand up by himself from a sitting position yikes slow down. I'm grateful for FAMILY. I'm fiercely independant so don't really like asking for help thank goodness my family popped round text and called without my asking them to. I'm grateful for EVERYDAY and night.  My days have been filled up with more excitement & entertainment than I thought was possible. I've literally crawled into my bed every night as well as a nap during the day too. Instead of looking at 23 as a wasted year of unfulfilled goals I will use it as a reminder to laugh & live a little more. 

E is for ...

Life is a one big blur/whirlwind of milk bottles and dirty nappies and now it's been a good 4 months since giving birth I  no longer have the excuse of I just had a baby so I've added the dreaded E word into my life. Exercise! The thought of it fills me with despair and disgust. Despair cause I am too damn tired from taking care of Hunter, obsessively cleaning my house and trying to solve World Peace. Disgust because I really don't want to get sweaty, I'd rather have a kitkat. Some women just bounce back to normal size after having a baby (hate them, secretly jealous). 

In terms of weight pregnancy was quite kind to me I lost 20lbs in the 1st 5 months due to morning sickness and even by the end of pregnancy I still hadn't gained it all back. So yay to being pre baby weight after delivery but noooo to whatever this body shape I'm left with. No one told me I could be the same size but my clothes wouldn't fit like they used to!! My belly feels and looks like a balloon that's been blown up and deflated a couple of times. I feel like that too ha ha. I know I didn't have a supermodel body before but in car terms I'd think I wasn't a sleek Porshe or Ferrari more a sturdy reliable spacious Vauxhall Zafira now I'm a beat up battered old  taxi cab with bags under my eyes. So with a wedding coming up in May and wanting to be fit, healthy and able to run around after our little man the hubby and I are on diets no scratch that 'lifestyle change' (eye roll). We still eat what we want but within our daily calorie allowance. I must admit I can feel the difference drinking a litre of water every day has made. I struggled at 1st because water tastes so awful but now I just gulp it down for the greater good. I'm going to get a cross trainer at home so I can exercise watch tv and be with Hunter all at the same time. I'm sure he'll have a right good laugh at my expense as I'm huffing and puffing on the machine.

3 months already/ video

Where has the time gone! Hunter is 3 months old now. I feel like I'm slowly losing my baby. He's learning new things everyday he likes to stand up when supported and is forever chattering away to himself. He's now starting to learn how to use his hands and can hold/pull things mainly mummy's hair! I love him more and more each day. My only issue is I was misinformed

 "after 6 weeks he'll settle , he'll sleep"

Yeah right this little man doesn't like to sleep anymore. He's back to dozing during the day and awake at night! Maybe it's due to Christmas holidays and getting out of our routine. But since he had his 1st lot of immunisations 3 weeks ago he will only sleep for 2/3 hours at a time again. Were going backwards :/ and he's become fussy and will only have his bottle if he's ready or in a certain position. If it wasn't for my lovely husband getting up with me every time then changing Hunters nappy, I think I would be a sleep deprived zombie ha ha.

Apart from that all is well. I think he enjoyed his first Christmas even though he couldn't have any Christmas dinner it was just lovely for us to go over the top and spend lots of time together with him. Ed took 2 weeks off work and it's been bliss. It's meant I can have a lie in and I haven't had to do a single poopy nappy! 

I feel so incredibly blessed especially now at the start if a New Year reflecting on the past one . My heart is full and I couldn't have asked for cuter little man who makes everyday more special than the last.

Hunter our greatest blessing from grace wild on Vimeo.